Losing my volume control

I am here, I promise!

I’m just a little busy right now with my day job…

On a positive note, spending so much time at work at the moment means that I get to eat all my meals here – Marmite on toast, peanut butter on toast, jam on toast, just toast, you name it, I’m eating it with toast at the moment.

Toast really is the most wonderful comfort food. If I was in a burning building and had to save the future of chocolate or toast, I would choose toast – so long as someone else grabbed the toaster.

Anyway, the other advantage of working long hours is that it gives me very little time to experience life with my nutty neighbour. Last night, she was obviously having a tantrum of some kind because she started slamming the cupboard doors that are below my bedroom. But what she forgets is that being deaf, any noise is just like adding colour to my life – with exceptions being bad jazz, bad sopranos and pneumatic drills!

So if she’s trying to frustrate me or annoy me, it’s not really working. It does however make me sad that she’s so intent on us not getting along.

But let’s not think about her.

Let’s talk about my progress on London Underground.

This week I was stuck in a tunnel for no less than 10 minutes, without any placebo Rescue Remedy to hand – OK, so I was thinking all the usual thoughts of, ‘Why do I live in London?’, ‘Why aren’t I in the country?’ etc etc, but I didn’t freak out…

Amazing!

This feel the fear and do it anyway approach is quite life changing. If you’d have asked me six months ago how I’d feel about taking the tube to work every day, I would have probably freaked out. In fact, when I accepted this new job, it wasn’t worries about the new career challenges that kept me awake at night, it was wondering how I was going to get to and from work each day.

Mental, eh?

It’s amazing how the decisions you make can change and shape your life in ways you never imagined. Things that make you braver, things that make you laugh and make you cry. What I’m coming to realise is that if you try to keep out the bad, you also keep out the good. If you only go with the familiar, you miss out on discovering the unknown. And if you choose to stay in the shadows, then no one really notices you.

Thankfully I’ve never had any problem with the last one, mainly because of my frequent loss of volume control.

I’ve bellowed twice today already – one time unwittingly announcing to the entire open-plan office that I was off to the loo.

*cringe

I guess what I am trying to say is – live life today. Don’t let your nutty neighbour get you down. Don’t sweat the petty stuff and don’t pet the sweaty stuff.

And if you don’t hear from me until next week, have a fab Thankful Friday and weekend.

DG